Sunday, July 1, 2012
Some Lies are very beautiful, I realised for the first time. That you are back, you have taken birth again. You know what, everybody was so relaxed after listening this. Even I have taken a sound sleep for the first time
after your incident.
Its been 2 months now since you have gone. How is everything there? Happy now?
See i m very angry with you and frustrated too.. So dont you dare to give me any reasons for anything.
Everybody else is saying that it was not your fault, even you didnt know that this gonna happened to u, but I m not yet convienced.
Didnt you think a bit for cha and chi, and what about iti?
I Cannot believe this, that you can do this. Was it that easy for you?
Hey Boy, Listen, I m not crying, I m just cleansing my eyes... u understand that.
You know, you were on TV too, we saw you, but you didn't speak anything.
May your soul would be resting in peace, but believe me our bodies are not resting and minds are not in peace at all!!!
Think what pain you have given to all of us..
You always say na ki "bada ho ja bada ho ja.. atlast mujhe bada karke chala gaya na tu,,,
I can handle everything without you... Will show you one day..
I m still 1600 Kms away from our home but still felt their pain from here.
You know what, There is no more noise of laughter at home. and you have carried it away all fun with you.
I cant forget the night i got the call from home, each moment, each word engraved in my mind like anything, I was simply lost, speechless, numb. had no words to speak.
From your childhood, you kept on falling kabhi idhar kabhi udar, while walking, while speeding your cycle most of the time, while riding Scooter , and this time you fell but you didnt stand.
Pa was saying, that they danced a lot when u were born, as you were the first boy in the family.
I didnt cry that day too when i saw your body, i brought u home, seen every unfortunate things, seen everybody crying around me, but not a single tear rolled down from my eyes in front of anybody, Because i need to take care of everybody.
I cant forget your face, your eyes were looking very beautiful this time.
You know what, I always got Shielded because of you, whether its bringing groceries from market, Board Exams, or even marriage. People always say "Ki abhi to bada bhai hai"
I have no hesitation telling people that i do steal your styles.
Yesterday it was cha and chi's marriage annivarsary.
I called at 11 in night, not because i forgot, just that donno how to face them. What to talk about.
This is for you....
"Tha kabhi tu aakho me, Aaj wahi aakhein dhoodti hai tujhe.
Chora tune hume yu ki hum sambhal na paye.
samjh na paye hum, ki tu durr chala gaya hai, ya aur kareeb aa gaya.
pahale tu sirf hamare saath tha, aaj tu har jagah hai, magar dikhta kahi nahi
teri aawaz nahi hai, magar teri aahate sunayi deti hai.........."